Post D&C

Well, it's over. We just got home from the hospital. Everything went well and I am sitting here eating some soup on the couch. I am still sort of woozy from the anesthesia, and a tiny bit crampy, but other than that, I am feeling pretty good. I'm bleeding quite a bit, but apparently that is normal. I'm just going to sleep, read, and watch tv for the rest of the day and take it easy. Thanks for the words of encouragement!

Change of Plans

Everything happened so fast yesterday - all of a sudden I was talking to my RE and the IVF coordinator and my OB and the OB nurse trying to find answers to why my hcg is so high and we can't see anything. I guess they all got freaked out thinking that something could be wrong, like a molar pregnancy or something, and my RE decided that I needed a D&C asap. So. I'm leaving in 5 minutes for my D&C at the hospital. To say I'm terrified is an understatement. But, at this point I'm terrified of having it pass naturally, too, so at least this way it will be over and done with. Surgery just scares me. Everyone reassures me that this is an easy procedure with minimal pain and a fast recovery time. I hope they're right! My regular OB is doing the procedure, so we don't have to travel 2 hours to the RE's office. That's a nice change. I'll update when I can about how it goes. Wish me luck!

Hcg Level

I just got a call from my RE's nurse with my beta from yesterday (what should have been 7w5d). It is over 20,000 still! I thought it would be SO much lower. So, it seems I have a ways to go before my body decides I'm not pregnant. We'll check the level next week to see if it is going down appropriately.

Update

Yesterday we went back to the doctor for another ultrasound (no change from last week) and to discuss my options. The RE gave me 3 options: 1. Expectant therapy, which means we wait for a natural miscarriage to occur. 2. A D&C, which is surgery to dilate and vacuum out the uterus. 3. A shot that causes cramping and expells what is in the uterus. None of these sound particulary appealing, but I had already decided that I wanted to wait and have it happen naturally. My body has been through enough lately and there is no way I want to have surgery or another injection that has yucky side effects. We are monitoring my hcg levels weekly and hopefully when they get back down to zero, my body will realize it's not pregnant and take care of things naturally. If that doesn't happen, then we'll revisit the D&C option.

I guess I am still in shock. I am not crying as much or nearly as upset as I was after our 1st IVF. I am just very, very bitter. I don't want to try again for a long time. I'm not giving up, but I need a break. Mentally and physically. I need to step away from all this crap and feel like a normal person for a little while. We'll use our frozen embryos eventually, but definitely not in 2008. Again, thank you to all of you for your kind words and support. It means so much to me and really gives me strength.

Thank You

Thank you so much to all of you for your kind words. It means so much to me that you all are out there thinking of us and praying for us, even though I don't even know you. I will update you on Monday after my appointment. Please keep those prayers coming - I really need them.

7 week ultrasound

Today my worst nightmare came true. There was no fetal pole, no yolk sac, and no heartbeat. Just an empty gestational sac. The pregnancy is over. It's called a missed miscarriage. I've had no bleeding or symptoms that things were going wrong. I go back on Monday to discuss the D&C.

My cute new maternity shirt

I found this super cute maternity t-shirt today at our neighborhood shops' sidewalk sale. It's a fortune cookie shirt that was 75% off so I got it for $6.99! I'll be able to wear it when I am showing and obviously pregnant. I think it's so fun! :)