POAS

The darkest line EVER! This has gotta be good news, right?

Beta #3

It's 891. That's a 40.3 hour doubling time. Yay! So much for not getting my hopes up. Now they are up and I'm feeling excited. My RE usually does the first ultrasound at 7 weeks, but given my history, he wants to see me next Thursday at 6 weeks for my first ultrasound. We probably will not be able to see a heartbeat at that point, but he will be looking for size and placement of the gestational sack and perhaps the yolk sac and fetal pole. The nurse cautioned that it may be too early to see anything beside the sac, though. At this point it's cautious optimism and we'll just see what happens!

I'm still pregnant! (5 Weeks)

Yes, I'm still here and still pregnant (as far as I know). Tomorrow I have another beta, so we'll see what happens then. My symptoms are mainly just being very tired and having an insatiable thirst. I POAS last night and the pregnant line is a lot darker than the control line, so I'm taking that to be a good sign! Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers. I'll let you know when I get my beta back tomorrow.

Beta #2

Well, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. My beta more than doubled, going from 35 on Thursday to 75 today. I'm neither happy, nor sad...just neutral. I guess it can go either way at this point. I would certainly love a miracle, but I just don't have the energy to get my hopes up. I've been here twice before, with a doubling beta, and things have not ended well. I don't want to seem negative, but I have to guard my heart. Thank you all so much for all your encouraging comments...they mean so much to me and Mr. C. My next beta will be Friday, September 4th, so I have another week to wait. I'll keep you posted!

Beta In

Well, it's not good news. My beta is at 35. I know there have been lots of success stories with low betas, but with my history, it is most likely not going to be viable. I've had 3 former ivfs, 2 with higher first betas than this and they've all been a c/p or miscarriage. We will test again on Saturday. I'm very very sad and coming to terms with being at the end of my IF journey. Thank you all for your well wishes and prayers.

Fun Fotos

Nothing new to report. My beta is on Thursday...I will not POAS before then, so it will be a surprise when I get the call. I'm just feeling crampy and tired. Same as every time before. Plus, my upper back is KILLING me. That's happened every time, too, but not as severe as it is this time. Maybe a good sign?

Here are some photos to entertain you today!

Our embryos. The top two are the 4AA blastocysts and the smaller one is the 3BB that didn't make it.


My file at our RE's office. It's about 4 inches thick! So sad.


A very dorky pic of me suiting up for transfer.

ET went well!

We transferred two grade 4AA blastocysts yesterday. It took a little longer to get the catheter into my uterus because my ovaries are so big (they are "kissing") that they are pushing my uterus straight up and down. Usually the dr. wants a full bladder so it pushes the uterus down horizontally. Even with a full bladder, my ovaries were pushing back so hard that my uterus was completely vertical! Despite that, everything went well and I'm now chillaxin' on bedrest!

In not so good news, we got a call from the embryologist this morning telling us that none of the other embryos made it to freeze. They all arrested yesterday/last night. So, that's good and bad. Good in that it means we truly are finished with IVF. There will be no frozen embryos to tempt us to try again if this cycle doesn't work. Bad because if this cycle DOES work, we were hoping to have some frozen to use for a sibling in the future. Also, of course we now wonder if the embryos they transferred yesterday are going to stop growing like the rest of the cohort did. I'm going to think positively, though, and hope that they are implanting right now!