Monday, December 22, 2008

Today is my Due Date from IVF #1

Today should be the happiest day of my life. I should be filled with the excitement and anticipation of meeting my baby today. Today I should be called mother. Instead, I am empty.

6 comments:

s.e. said...

I know you are hurting and the pain must make you feel empty. But you are not.

You are filled with grace and love, mother or not.

Thinking of you today.

Peeveme said...

I think the first is the worse. I think it gets better after that.

Kahla said...

Sending lots of hugs your way and wishing you nothing but the best with your FET!

Anonymous said...

I stumbled across your page and have to say my heart aches with you...12/21 would have been our due date and I can relate to the pain the date brings as it comes and goes... Praying that 2009 will fill our arms with babies! ((cyber hugs)) Kim

Sarah said...

I'm sorry to hear your story kelly. i hope the new year fills you with new dreams. they will not replace the ones you've had but i hope these come true!

faye said...

I happened upon your blog today, and got a little addicted. You raw honesty and open emotion is so moving to me. I really admire the way you have shared your journey and your pain here. It is a very loving way of going about life. You will be a wonderful mother. Peace,